Stepping up into motherhood means changes in every single aspect of our life, body and soul. The very first changes start in our body. I knew from moment zero that I was pregnant, feeling my breasts plumper and more sensitive. Some of these changes, we will carry for the rest of our lives, even if they’re not the prettiest ones like scars and stretch marks. But I’m not ashamed of it because they tell my story and this is who I am now. I remember the feeling right after Lola was born, when I finally had the guts to look at my belly and thought, “what the heck has happened to it?” It looked like an old balloon that has lost pretty much all the air throughout the days. It was a flabby mess. I was pretty bad my whole pregnancy. I ate everything I wanted and didn’t exercise at all (like my entire life), which made me gain 48.5 pounds. Everyday I looked myself in the mirror and thought, “Who are you? Who have you become?” I didn’t like what I was seeing and I thought that with just a miracle things could be different. Through the countless hours of breastfeeding, I started getting very into instagram and found some amazing women that have changed their lifestyle. I thought that maybe I could do the same. At first, I started because I wanted my body back, I won’t lie, but what kept me going was to become a better person, to set a good example for my daughter. I completely changed my lifestyle. I go to the gym pretty much every day and I eat ¨clean¨. I started to respect myself because feeding my body with all that junk that I had used to was very disrespectful. I’m much stronger, not just physically but mentally, have lots of energy and sleep well. When I’m working out, it is the time I have for myself to clear out my mind. We often tend to null ourselves when we become a mother. There’s nothing wrong about taking time for yourself, don’t feel guilty about it. Do it for you, not just to have a beach body during summer but because this is the only way to keep going. It’s not an easy journey. A lot of days I find myself going to the gym at 9pm after a long day, but nothing in life is easy. As cliché as it will sound, if I can do it, anyone can do it, believe me.
If I can help you with anything please let me know, I’d be more then glad to help!
Lots of love,
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Every month Carina talks about the journey of blending all parts of herself, old and new, with her newest role as mother.